This is a difficult review to write, because It is not really a critique of the author, but the deeper overarching subject of St John''s personal truth. Unfortunately, the two works cannot be separated in this case and overall St John leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Raised...
This is a difficult review to write, because It is not really a critique of the author, but the deeper overarching subject of St John''s personal truth. Unfortunately, the two works cannot be separated in this case and overall St John leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Raised as a Catholic, I quickly jumped ship as soon as my childhood was over. I remember keeping blind faith as a child as I was instructed to do so, yet there was always this persistent unease, almost like a not fully conscious sense of dread that accompanied those years. It was like, when you know something is off, but just can''t put your finger on it. As soon as I became a young man I quickly started to understand why.
For the past approximately 25 years, I have studied in depth almost all of the worlds current as well as dead religions. I have studied DEEP into ancient history''s cultural, spiritual, mythical and scientific understandings. I have studied so far back that the average person has no idea what I am even referring to at the slightest degree. Out of every spiritual understanding I have researched there is one particular thing about Christianity that is unique and sticks out like a sore thumb. Christianity is the only one that vilifies reason, discourages deeper understanding and requires above all else that you become willfully blind as a literal flock of sheep. It is so pervasive, that it is rare I meet a Christian who has actually even read their Bible in its entirety, often making ludicrous statements which are not even actually in the scripture itself. I have read the Bible 3 times in 3 different translations to fully understand it and I can say without a doubt, I KNOW WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS and what it does not say. Yet to my surprise, almost every single Christian I know has a very poor understanding of their book and perpetuate blatant falsehoods that linger by word of mouth and never die. The same people who go through their motions of verbally saying their prayers, without even actually reflecting upon the words. I have seen more hypocrisy in Christianity than any other religion I have studied. Not only do the numerous contradictions in the Bible itself lead to a very fragile framework, but the very contradicting nature of Christians themselves significantly eclipse even those glaring inconsistencies. Now as far as Jesus himself, I find him quite fantastic, so my problem is not Christ himself, my problem is with Christians. Christians are so unlike their Christ it blows my mind. Amongst all the masses of "Fake Christians" today, I am sure there are a very small handful of genuine Christians, but I have never met one in person.
My purpose in saying this, is not to bash Christianity believe it or not. As a matter of fact, I would very much love to believe, but no matter how much I lie to myself, I would always feel the entire thing was a lie. The Bible is not the word of god, it is the word of man. Not just one man, but a whole gaggle of men spread out across time ,who cannot even agree enough to keep their own Bible consistent. The real word of the Bible is Constantine''s word, a terrible man who lived so unlike Christ and his elite group of corrupt Nicaean aristocrats. The entire religion is nothing but, Hypocrisy, persecution, war, violence, megalomania, ignorance, sexism, racism, subjugation, torture and to put it quite plainly indoctrination. To deny all of the higher faculties of human thought, for blind faith in subservience, or elst forever burn in hell. Sounds like a loving tolerant religion to me, with a loving tolerant God.
So as far as the "Dark night" is concerned, I still see frequent self contradiction on the part of St John. Now, possibly its due to poor translation, but I doubt it, as the entire religion follows the same pattern. One thing I know for sure, is as I read read this, I feel the same increasing dread, foolishness and hopelessness that I felt back when I was in the clutches of the church.
The book itself, ehh! I could not get on board with it. I wanted to believe in it, to take something from it useful, but nothing, nada. I cannot follow any author or religion that is so prevalent with self contradiction. I really do feel that if Christ did exist, not much of if any of his words survived Constantine. The Gnostic Christian groups were the most likely to hold the truth, Rome made darn sure they all died while their books were burned. They died, because of Gnosis, they died because they held actual wisdom, wisdom that if exposed would destroy the false church of Rome.
Whether in respects to St John or any other Christian for that matter, getting on the same page and putting an end to the contradictions will be the greatest service that can be done for the cause. I really don''t see much in this book other than, surrender all free will, give up, don''t try, don''t reason, blind faith, your just Gods puppet, your always wrong no matter what, nothing can be done, God loves you so much that you will suffer eternally in darkness for your own good. It almost seems like Nihilism in a way.
Some see a man who is a saint, I just see a man who threw his entire life away and gave up on pretty much everything. At least true Nihilists call it what it is and don''t try to dress it up in a pretty package. He professes the greatest gamble ever conceived, to throw away ones own free will, gouge out ones own eyes and jump into an ocean of spirituality naked and hope a divine current brings you back to God. My final thought is, what is the purpose of God even making us then, his own entertainment?! I refuse to believe God is so Daft and shortsighted as St John posits.